Tired.

I'm tired. Dead tired. AND all I want to do is eat eat eat! Let the "symptoms" begin! Okay, that took up all my energy, time to lay down.

And the waiting begins. . .

I am pretty sure I ovulated yesterday which means the waiting game has now begun. I can say I really think this is my month but who am I kidding? I think EVERY month is my month so until I feel something TOTALLY different I can only think that this month is like any other.

I tried to keep my mind of my ovulation and my chart (which I have looked at about 100 times this weekend) but getting out of the house today with H. We went up to the Berkeley hills and looked at the views of the bay then we went down to College avenue in Berkeley and had Chinese food and then just strolled around window shopping for about an hour. By then I was SUPER tired and needed a nap.

After my nap I did yard work which consisted mostly of me picking up dead leaves that have been dropped by our avocado tree AND cutting back my crazy rose bush.

Now I'm winding down for the night and also completely obsessing over whether or not I will be pregnant this month. Hopefully work will keep me busy this week and then by next weekend I will be close to my test date. The waiting is agony.

Stretching and eating better.

H and I just did an awesome stretch routine from his workout DVD series P90X. It is an hour of stretching and breathing and after wards you feel amazing! I really do need to stretch more because I am not very flexible at all and I know that is some of the reason why my body is always in pain and why I keep pulling muscles. Last week was the first week I did the stretch routine with him and I was not even able to finish the whole thing, this week I wasn't able to do every stretch but I kept with it and finished so next week I hope I am able to see even more improvement.

I am now eating my "power breakfast" a bowl of yogurt with raspberries, honey, and almonds. It tastes so good and really keeps me filled up. I needed to eat this because yesterday I snacked all day long and felt bloated by dinner time. None of that today.

Trying to let go. . .

I am trying to come to the realization that letting go will allow for more good to happen in my life. I have so much stress and tension built up about getting pregnant, my job, and the house that I think it is hindering me from doing what I really want to do which is to just be a mom already!

I have started taking deep breaths more often and started smiling and laughing more when I get home from work instead of bitching and complaining about how horrible my life is.

I think this little step will lead me to a better place in my life.

The Lake and The Creek.

R and I took a walk around Lake Merritt this morning. I love the fact that there are about a million Canadian geese nesting and swimming around the lake right now. Here is a picture I took of a bunch of them sitting on the grass near the lake. The walk was really nice, it was nice to get out of the house and be active and the weather was perfect. After the walk we wandered up Grand Avenue and had some lunch and then we wandered over to Lakeshore and looked into the shops and had some frozen yogurt. Just an over all nice morning and afternoon.

Later in the day we went out to Walnut Creek to go shopping at the Crate and Barrel. We still have gift certificates for C&B from the wedding so I just figured we could go see if anything looked interesting. I ended up buying a cookbook and a candle but R and I did fall in love with a couple pieces of furniture there.

We went to the book store after C&B and I bought a book on options trading. I do plan on reading up and becoming an expert. We'll see. . .

Rough week.

Last week was rough. My period came on Wednesday after what I thought was my most promising cycle yet. I was in such a bad mood for a few days that I even broke down and cried a couple of times. Being at work didn't really help the matter either. We are down a girl at work until July 9th which means there are two of us up front running around like crazy trying to keep things afloat. All I wanted to do was be at home and over analyze why I wasn't pregnant this month, but instead I was working at a job that I hate. Life is rough sometimes.

I feel okay now. Today is the 4th of July and we are going to have a little bbq with some friends. Nice and mellow.

Realizations of the week: Pretty charts do not necessarily lead to pregnancy & I really need to start making money in some other way.